What happened? How did I get here?
I replay the past few days and realize how my mood felt so heavy despite the multiple birthday parties I had attended. (Why do people seem to be born in clumps?) I was able to turn down desert at dinner, but realized how tempted I was to get lost in that chocolate cake and forget about life. Forget about a silly disagreement with my partner, financial struggles, and how tired I’ve been.
Clearly, I can’t expect life to be free of conflict, money troubles, or sleep deprivation. The trick is how to ride the wave without having it crash down on me and pull me out to sea. It’s normal to feel down, sad, frustrated. In fact, I have to remember to FEEL these feelings, not eat them away. I’ve tried. It doesn’t work.
So, the next time you’re feeling down, like the world doesn’t understand, and things won’t get better, remember, you’re not alone. So many of us feel like this, but rarely do we want to share our feelings with others and when we’re in that moment, we don’t reach out. I hope we can use this space to share when we have these moments; to feel connected, to take a breath, and let the feelings pass.